Since I was told that my contract would not be renewed, despite getting glowing reviews from everyone except for the owner, I've been unable to get to sleep. The weakness I have yet to overcome is my OCD-like mental focus on injustices... the spinning that goes on when I've been misjudged (in actuality, or in my perception). I run through the arguments that I want to make over and over in my head, not intentionally, but inescapably. I try to stop myself. I cannot. I keep trying, but I cannot.
So...
No sleep.
No work can be done on the remainder of the existing contract, because I can't think straight. Looks like tomorrow will be day 3 of no billable hours.
Which just adds to the money worries. Which I shouldn't even worry about, but I do.
It's all going downhill quickly.
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