The Geek is out of town, and I've been working, working, working with no social outlets to interrupt.
Meanwhile, I've been hesitant to write much here lately, thanks to paranoia induced by the Masochist and the very good chance that she'll continue her pattern of randomly lashing out at ex-boyfriends months after having been with them.
Don't get me wrong, life isn't bad. It's just a bit dreary.
I can't really make myself go out and meet people when I know the Geek is very possessive, and easily hurt.
She actually said to me, over the phone, that should I have the need to I can just go out and find someone to have sex with while she is gone. And then became very, very quiet. I asked her, "You didn't mean to say that, now did you?" She let out a quiet sobbing "no" in reply...
I know her. At least well enough to know that she's trying to hold on loosely and not let jealousy flare up constantly, but it isn't going to happen anytime soon.
So, back to the long weekend I'm spending alone.
One thing that is very important to me is to never again center my entire social life around one person, but with this lull in my hobbies and the Geek being away, there is evidence to suggest that I'm letting it happen.
I need something to do that doesn't involve dating. Hard to figure out what when I've used dating as the prime reason to do pretty much everything.
So... you are or are not exclusive?
ReplyDeleteWe are... I'm not sure that I can pin down the exact moment, because it was the request from the start, but there was the temporary breakup. But we are and other than each having a single movie night with an ex-boy/girlfriend we haven't seen anyone else since the start of June.
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