Short term, long term.
There is clearly value in getting to know people enough to learn from them. I've said before that every single woman that I've dated has given me something, somehow made me a better person.
As I reach the point where I'm unsure if the benefits of being in a more long term relationship outweigh the cost, I start to factor that in.
Admittedly, I managed to get that benefit in my recent travel, while still having the long term relationship back home. But it was made clear to me that taking another trip on my own was not an option, ever again, in this relationship.
So.
This is what I have to look forward to, should things carry on between the Geek and I. Blatant constant racism, negativity, self-esteem issues, but there is also her love for me and our matching appreciation of music, travel, and fitness.
Somehow that doesn't seem balanced. But I don't know.
It all comes back to "what is good enough?"
There is no perfection.
There is only the question - does being with her make me a better person, or a worse one?
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