I've spent some time thinking about this. Maybe your goals have changed. Maybe what used to be most important to you has shifted into more of a companionship than passionate love. Someone to grow old with.
It's been a month since this, and it's just recently that I've stopped constantly moping. I haven't been back to see my grandmother in a week now... Not since my mother said that she has gotten worse, she's spacing out constantly.
I don't know why life events have affected me so much for so long. I thought that I would come to accept things that are a normal part of life... Jobs are lost, precious family members age and pass. To be upset is normal. To try to hide from the world more and more isn't.
I desperately want security, but that's unrealistic. I shouldn't be in a holding pattern in a vain attempt to pretend I have security.
I've spent some time thinking about this. Maybe your goals have changed. Maybe what used to be most important to you has shifted into more of a companionship than passionate love. Someone to grow old with.
ReplyDeleteI started thinking no one read blogs anymore. :)
ReplyDeleteThat's possible...
It's been a month since this, and it's just recently that I've stopped constantly moping. I haven't been back to see my grandmother in a week now... Not since my mother said that she has gotten worse, she's spacing out constantly.
I don't know why life events have affected me so much for so long. I thought that I would come to accept things that are a normal part of life... Jobs are lost, precious family members age and pass. To be upset is normal. To try to hide from the world more and more isn't.
I desperately want security, but that's unrealistic. I shouldn't be in a holding pattern in a vain attempt to pretend I have security.