Looking Back

Most of my love life has been unexpected. An open, exploring mind resulted in such a strange path.

My first serious girlfriend told me at one point that when she met me she thought I was gay.

I've dated a dominatrix, but did it as the one in a dominant role. It was a strange polyamorous relationship.

I dated more than one woman simultaneously over several different periods.

I've never had, or had any interest in, a threeway with another guy. I've had three threeways with two women.

I've dated some seriously amazing women. I've gotten used to being with women that are out of my league.

When dating in my home town, it was usually women ten or thirteen years younger than I was. When I dated abroad, that's when I chose women close to my age.

But when I fell in love at 48, hard, it was with a girl half my age.

I leave and come back. More than once I've broken up with someone and gotten back together with them, repeatedly.

I stay friends with my ex's often.

My best friend is my ex girlfriend and her husband keeps asking me to talk in his sociology classes about my relationships or about my sex life. And if I have any ideas what he can do for her birthday.

I'm sure that half my improv class thinks I'm gay while the other half thinks I'm a womanizer.

I've loaned my ex wife thousands of dollars this year. I had Thanksgiving at her place with my current girlfriend.

My ex wife's husband renovated my bathroom and re-shingled my roof last year.

I've received nude photos from a woman  I slept with a year previous and said to myself, well, that was unnecessary.

I currently have zero interest in sex or even kissing, but I think that's because I'm in a relationship that I shouldn't be in.

I've been told that I'm so good at giving oral sex that I must've been trained by a lesbian.

I've slept with over 100 women in my lifetime, I think. 90+ for sure. I'm shy. I really am shy.

My normal is weird.

I should just accept that my normal is weird.