Rising

Today has consisted of:

- Get up, make breakfast for kids, take them to school.
- Have bath
- Go back to bed.
- Be awoken at 11am by delivery.
- Make lunch for kids, get them from school.
- Go to bank.
- Return home feeling sleepy, so try to do something active.
- Still sleepy, try to work, fail.
- Here I sit.

And for some reason I think this is a day where I show signs of improvement?

Go figure.

So let's talk about relationships.

Haven't heard from the prof in a couple of days. Currently I'm pondering the theory that she likes me best when I'm not showing as much interest, and the more interest I show the less she's interested. So.... dunno...

I'm thinking that to move forward, I'd like to meet someone with certain "best of who I've already met" traits.

I'm not seeing much opportunity at the moment, however... not seeing it in the online dating world, and not seeing myself expanding successfully outward from that world. I just don't know where everyone went...

I could respond by saying, "whatever, I'll throw myself into my work/kids/other" as other people do, but I derided Deb for that sort of statement, and I still feel the same way. Saying "I have more important things to do than to find a relationship" seems like a sour grapes approach to me.

So... my time will continue to be filled, I'm sure, but I would like to find someone to share my life with.