Re-evaluation

I'm tired, and maybe I shouldn't even be thinking.

I couldn't think straight, and I narrowed my options for the even down to going to bed ridiculously early, or forcing myself to be entertained. In the end I chose the latter.

I attempted to watch "This Film Is Not Yet Rated", but the disc wouldn't play so I watched Man of the Year in its stead. I followed this with Louis C.K.'s standup special, Shameless. Lately it seems that comedians are struggling to find lines to cross, and the mere attempts to go beyond the increasingly large societal common comfort zone aren't making me laugh. That's not why I mention it, though.

Part of his act was about marriage versus being single, and a large part was about sex.

I'm tired, and maybe I shouldn't even be thinking.

The way I'm leaning, it's looking like my future holds permanent celibacy, and the only question is whether it will be by choice or circumstance.

Do I even want to have sex?

Usually the answer is no.

Do women want to have sex?

Usually the answer is yes. Ok, I've never met anyone where the answer was no. Party of one, please.

If that's the case, then that means I am bound to disappoint anyone I date. Either immediately or eventually. I don't like to disappoint people. So, why date?

I'm tired, and maybe I shouldn't even be thinking.