Dependency without

Let's face it.  I just don't like being alone that much.

There are no loose ends by this point, by the way, just all around rejection.  Not undeserved, mind you, but low level painful nonetheless.

And I can't go to sleep without making vain attempts to reach out and meet someone, anyone.

Even tonight's success in those attempts quickly turns into failure.

Now what?

I should just stop.  Give it up.  Cold turkey.  Pull out the needle.  The line is dry anyway.