Thoughts

I had many ideas for blog entries over the last 48 hours, but little time to write them down, and now most are gone.

Once again, sex is something that I am enjoying more because of how it makes someone else feel rather than the direct sensations I get. I'm not sure if that's good or bad, or neither.

I miss having a regular run. I'm hoping that the weather will change soon, but so far it hasn't co-operated.

As I finish the Richard Dawkins book, which I wish I felt comfortable giving a copy of to everyone I know, I realize that I cannot help but agree with his argument that even the tolerance of moderate religion can lead to horrible things because it nurtures the uncritical thought process necessary to allow the murder of innocents for one's own entrance into heaven (with bonus virgins or flowers depending on your interpretation of the Koran, or equivalent reward depending on your myth of choice), or perhaps no less sadly, the bombing of abortion clinics, the separation of children from their parents, the abuse (physical, mental, biblical) of children and adults, and so forth. I wonder how I can subtly change the world around me to be a better place, and by better I mean a place where people can be safer, healthier, happier. I find some solace in the fact that many believers, moderates, at least have the sense to question the institutions and figureheads when the immorality is too obvious, even if they don't follow the problem to its source. With this in mind, I mentally have elevated any non-deistic religion or spirituality above Judaism, Islam and Christianity in terms of innocuousness. I've also revisited my conclusion that religion was born out of a need by some to control others; he has an excellent case for religion being a side effect of evolved psychological traits and only later being co-opted for (in my opinion, not his words) class warfare. It was a fascinating book in the same way that other books that delve into the way people and societies work have fascinated me in the past.

Sleep without a question remains my greatest concern, with work goals close behind, but a general positive feeling is in me for the time being.