Omissions

The prof took me to task tonight, and we only disagree on some things.

Disagreement #1. The blog. If I choose to omit portions of my life, that is simply a choice, and does not mean that those portions do not exist. I did not spell out what happened Monday night, and I'm not sure if or how I will get into the details of it.

Disagreement #2. The enjoyment I have of certain physical features of girls. Yes, I like black. I like women in black clothing, or with dark mascara, for example. Women who have dark hair. I also like redheads and blondes (like the cute cashier), women of different shapes and sizes, with jeans, dresses, tattoos, dyed-hair, natural hair, with different voices, with different smells. Some personalities I like better than others too, and not always the ones that are bad for me. I think I've even found some vapid girls attractive despite my enjoyment of deep conversations, love of intelligence, and constant derision of stupidity. This doesn't mean that every girl I date *must* have dark hair, dark mascara, black clothing, and tattooes. It just means that different girls might attract me in different ways. Attraction is attraction, and we should embrace when we are attracted to someone, not deny it.

And I don't think that my use of the term "dark-haired girl" means that I have objectified her, and I only see her as her hair.

Now...

The one we might agree upon, but I not sure of, is about my current state of morality.

There is where the beration I received intersected with my thoughts of the past while.

I am wondering if I have lost my bearings, if my actions of late are signifying that. Am I just pushing boundaries? Following my feelings as I want to be? Just confused as I thought I've been?

Or have I no concern for others? But I do!

Am I now a self-centered, shallow man as the prof says? But everyone is self-centered! I thought I was better than most?

I have to consider this sometime soon, when it's not 3am going on 4am.