So, the perfect date has come and gone. ;-)
The first time I called her today, the impetus was a sudden realization that I hadn't called, and I didn't want to give the wrong impression by waiting a second longer before a follow up call. Which again proves I worry for nothing sometimes. (I just simply think too much!) I doubt she would have been thinking I was anyone other than who I am simply because I did or did not call immediately the next day. But that's me.
Then, later in the day, as I lay there failing to achieve a state of nap-ness, she was on my mind, stuck there, so I just had to call again though I had little to really say.
I'm disappointed not to have heard from her tonight, oddly enough, even though it's probably better this way since I need my sleep and it could have awoken me. And I know it's quite meaningless in regard to the budding relationship, as she has a busy schedule and many things to do... and we've already talked twice today!
Here I am again at an early crossroads. Someone interests me. Another fascinating puzzle without a picture to tell you where the pieces will go. What will it all look like at the end?
I'm very vague tonight, aren't I? :-)
I really do enjoy language too much. Sometimes at the expense of bluntness, but its ok to be pretty. Besides, leaving something a little up to interpretation does not mean that it's obscure, or that the final interpretation will be wrong.
And my mind is obviously wandering a bit tonight, isn't it? :-)
Little sentences. I like her. I don't know for sure what the length of this relationship will be. She is like me and yet comes from a place that is the opposite of where I come from. So similar and yet dissimilar. So much to explore yet. To understand. She says I fascinate her, and in some ways I can understand this, and in others I feel uninteresting when compared with her interests. But that's ok. In the same vein as my earlier advice to my sons, I just need to be me, feel what I feel, and the rest will sort itself out.
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