Focus

Work will continue to be my focus this month, I believe.

I have two weeks to finish the three year project. It will be difficult, and I'm still redesigning things as I go along to some extent. At least some progress is being made.

I keep having hopes that the right woman will magically appear in my life here at some point. Nobody right now seems right. I want someone similar to one of two someones I've already had. I need to remember that I didn't know those two someones in their entirety the minute I met them; I had to learn about them. But I also need to remember to cut bait and fish elsewhere if the person is not right, no matter how close to right they might appear in some areas, or how much time I've invested in them, or how I may feel the need for companionship. This is especially difficult for me.

Today I'm taking the boys with me for my run. I still have not had enough sleep to function at full capacity, but its my own fault, as I let my mood rather than logic run my schedule last night. In other words, stayed up too late because I was mopey. That's probably a good thing in this case, however, because the boys never like going on the run at full speed.

Weight continues to be an issue with me, but that's not surprising. I knew before reading yesterday's newspaper article that a lack of sleep leads to weight gain. So, too much work and not enough play are leading to not enough sleep, other factors are leading to not enough sleep (still don't know why I was sick to my stomach that night)... I just have to keep trying and everything will work out here yet.